I had the best day with someone I met randomly online. I left it up to chance to find me a friend that I shared interests with (ending in a preposition). We had a lot in common. We shared a lot of the same interests. I just want you to notice that I'm speaking in the past tense.
Of course, I've been drinking (as I'm writing this post). I've been drinking a lot. It's not enough to completely render this post useless, but it's enough to understand that I said too much and that what you were looking for was much more than a friendship.
You were definitely not what I was expecting. You stood 6'2" with amazing hair, a perfect smile, and an intelligence I knew I was attracted to from the first day you responded from my post. I'm lying. I wasn't attracted, but I was interested in getting to know who you were and what you were about.
I walked past you hoping it wasn't you that I'd be meeting because you were so damn tall and cute. At the same time, I knew it was you because you were so damn tall and cute. I waited at the entrance because we were meeting at the same place for brunch, and I knew you were following behind me waiting for the same thing. I could tell I wasn't what you were expecting (sorry I wasn't more attractive) because you were so quite, but I still wanted to know you. We ordered food and drinks, and we definitely opened up after some odd drinks from our mimosas. I knew drinking them would make me more comfortable, but it seemed like they made you more comfortable as well.
We can't blame the alcohol. There wasn't enough. We were flirting. It was subtle at points after drinking, and they were stronger during our drinks. I blew those off, but I did go along with them because I found you attractive and way out of my league. You complemented me without glasses, which is a first from my perspective, but I definitely kept them off for your sake. We continued our conversations about nerd business and geek-ology, and I noticed that you were having as good of a time as I was. The compliments kept coming from both ends, but I didn't want to venture too much into that territory because this was originally agreed upon that this would be only a friendship.
We laughed. We communicated. We continued to laugh. We ended up at Balboa park lying down in the grass watching humans exhibiting cos-play activities that we wished we were a part of. I moved to be alone in a semi-secluded area with tree-shade and comfort. We talked about our interest and the clouds as they hovered over us. I picked the grass from you hair, the leaves from your butt, and you wondered why I didn't slap the leaves from your butt as I removed the remnants of spring from your cute, little butt. In a simple answer, I was trying to be your friend before all else.
We continued to speak of our interests and or height difference. There seemed to be an attraction, and it was definitely pulling strong on your end. I didn't mind because it was so unexpected and unfamiliar, and I went along because it was new and interesting. I was attracted, as well, and I hoped that your hints at some spark of interest was genuine and honest. I noticed the subtle flaw you had, but I didn't care because I saw more in you than just your projection. You're intelligent. You're attractive. You have a passion you're willing to follow. You hide in you cave as I do, but you still share a love for the family that raised you. You favorite color is green, and we're the same age. We share similar interests in movies, games, comics, and life. We're practically the same major with a light difference. You mentioned my linguistic skills were attractive, and your writing capabilities definitely caught my attention. It seemed perfect.
I never had a better time watching the clouds go by. We steadily crept closer to each other and "accidentally" touched each other. We watched the leaves fall. We viewed the shapes in the clouds. We insulted each other and tried to figure out ways to make it up to each other. Tying you shoes wasn't enough, and I could tell you wanted more, but I wasn't ready to take it further. We just met, and I was only looking for a friendship. Alas, this is where it went wrong.
We spent our time of dessert with each other, and concluded with some quality time. You asked about my past relationship, and I think that was where you lost interest. Either you didn't like how I was still curious about what happened in my last relationship to make it turn sour, or you weren't interested in developing a relationship with someone who shared the same beliefs and aspirations as you do. Either way, I felt like I answered you questions too truthfully and you didn't like the response.
We had a good time. You can't deny that because I heard you laughing, I saw you smile, you elongated our time together, you kept asking questions, you invited me places, and you flirted. I would have never of flirted with if I had the slightest though you were uninterested. You know I don't like being kept in the dark, but you're keeping me in the dark with your lack of response. I can accept that you don't want to see me, but I'd appreciate it if you just said so. You were looking for more, and I can understand that, or else you wouldn't have flirted, but if I'm not your type or if you're just not interested, let me know. Your silence is what's confusing me the most.
Actually, your response to a friendly post rather than a relationship post is confusing me more than anything. I like you. I find you attractive both inside and out. Your intelligence is incredible, and you're about as big as a dick as I am. Bottom line, I was looking for a friend above anything else. It seems you were looking for more because I couldn't fit your mold. We didn't need to hook up. You hinted at more than just a friendship, but I wanted to be friends to begin with and I told you this. We just needed to connect before anything got serious; relationship or friendship. I guess you couldn't wait or you just weren't interested in having an ugly friend.
Sorry I'm not perfect. I'm just trying to be human. That's all. I'll still say hi If I ever see you again, but you seriously need to be clear on what you're expecting. If you want a relationship you need to say so, otherwise you're just getting a friendship that'll lead to who know what direction, either good or bad.
I can't stress enough how important it is to be honest and upfront.